Friday, May 25, 2007

Too Much to Ask

“What is the use of studying psychology when you can’t make the closest people happy?”
This statement appals me with its ignorance as to the responsibilities and the capabilities of all psychologists, let alone an inexperienced psychology graduate. Yet, it epitomizes the frustrations that I go through too, considering we are advised to remain an uninvolved stance in matters that is regarding our loved ones. Even with the potential partiality that may arise in counselling close friends and family, must we limit our expertise to strangers alone?
I guess today’s work of art by one Avril Lavigne illustrates the direness of our situation, especially among the (potentially) most important people in our lives. Just don’t snigger at the thought of me trying to make others laugh; I have no sense of humour apparently.

It’s the first time I ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
Its funny when you think it’s gonna work out
Till you chose weed over me, you're so lame
I thought you were cool until the point
But up until the point you didn’t call me when you said you would
I finally figured out you’re all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story
Every time I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh
You can't, you’re too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm asking for?
Thought you'd come around when I ignored you
So I thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning
'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here
But every time I try to make you smile
You'd always grow up feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh
You stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
Is it too much that I'm asking for?
Can't find where I am lying here alone I fear
Afraid of the dark no one to claim alone again
Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here
Every time I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh
You can't
You're too tough
You think you're loveless
It was too much that I'm asking for

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Things I'll Never Say

I must admit, even after the regular encounters over dinner or other social gatherings, a sense of edginess still persists within when I am in the company of certain people. I know that this totally contradicts the dogma of the IDIOT chapter, since my uneasiness underneath my many facades indirectly implies a degree of reliance in other’s opinion. I can’t help it. Some people are worth the anguish anxiety.
Well, this song by one special Ms Lavigne embodies the dilemma of picking the ‘best’ moment for overt expressions of attraction. True, the word choice is less sophisticated when compared to other rock bands but hey, it gets the message across. Despite the semi-depressing connotations of this song, Avril piques the imaginative mind once again with her cheeky lyrics. Listen carefully, or at least be more meticulous when reading the lyrics I graciously provided here.


I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head
’Cause I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
’Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care
’Cause I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
’Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say
’Cause I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
’Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
Yes I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say
Ah… Avril blowing me… (albeit) away… By the way, to all the romantics out there, hasty articulation of interest to ease the building need to share thoughts is inadvisable. Something as wonderful as romance shouldn't be kept hidden, right? Wrong. The only thing such verbalization achieves is unwanted awkwardness and the subsequent probable deterioration of a beautiful friendship.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Naked

Despite the suggestive nature of the title, this song by Avril does not really imply the absence of clothing to taunt us fans. Sorry to disappoint you perverts admirers of beauty. I had to rein in my imagination too, as hard as it is. This is to the people we IDIOTs laugh about. I hope that one day you are fortunate enough to meet that person whose presence alone melts away your fake smiles and false pretences away. Until then, immerse yourself with Avril like I do.
I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes
But then you came around me
The walls just disappeared
Nothing to surround me
And keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected
See how I've opened up
Oh, you've made me trust
Because I've never felt like this before
I'm naked, around you
Does it show?
You see right through me and I can't hide
I'm naked, around you
And it feels so right
I'm trying to remember
Why I was afraid
To be myself and let the
Covers fall away
I guess I never had someone like you
To help me, to help me fit
In my skin
I've never felt like this before
I'm naked, around you
Does it show?
You see right through me and I can't hide
I'm naked, around you
And it feels so right
I'm naked
Does it show?
Yeah, I'm naked
I'm naked
Does it show?
I'm so naked around you
And I can't hide
You're gonna see right through
You're gonna see right through
I'm so naked around you
And I can't hide
You're gonna see right through, baby