Things I'll Never Say

I must admit, even after the regular encounters over dinner or other social gatherings, a sense of edginess still persists within when I am in the company of certain people. I know that this totally contradicts the dogma of the IDIOT chapter, since my uneasiness underneath my many facades indirectly implies a degree of reliance in other’s opinion. I can’t help it. Some people are worth the anguish anxiety.

Well, this song by one special Ms Lavigne embodies the dilemma of picking the ‘best’ moment for overt expressions of attraction. True, the word choice is less sophisticated when compared to other rock bands but hey, it gets the message across. Despite the semi-depressing connotations of this song, Avril piques the imaginative mind once again with her cheeky lyrics. Listen carefully, or at least be more meticulous when reading the lyrics I graciously provided here.

I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head

’Cause I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
’Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

’Cause I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
’Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say

’Cause I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
’Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

Yes I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say

Ah… Avril blowing me… (albeit) away… By the way, to all the romantics out there, hasty articulation of interest to ease the building need to share thoughts is inadvisable. Something as wonderful as romance shouldn't be kept hidden, right? Wrong. The only thing such verbalization achieves is unwanted awkwardness and the subsequent probable deterioration of a beautiful friendship.